Note: My computer was down for two days and then I have been down for two days.
I am now resting, renewing my spirit and feeding myself the best in Love, food and inspiration.
Confession is good for the soul.
Getting sick is a wakeup call, inviting me to stop, look and listen.
So this is what I have found.
Taking responsibility for everything I experience is enlightening.
Being forgiving of my errors is freeing.
Acknowledging my awarenesses with no judgment opens the way to insight and inner guidance.
So how did you get sick, Betty Lue?
Ate grocery store produce and processed foods.
Ate commercially produced and prepared foods in restaurants.
Ate sugar and pastries.
Traveled in airplanes with no quality air filtration.
Spent time in hotel conference and sleeping rooms with minimal fresh air.
Thought about germs and warned others about being careful.
Felt guilty about 30 year old errors of unconscious commission and omission.
Put others' needs and scheduled activities before my own rest, recreation and spiritual renewal.
Watched TV commercials on illness and meds and listened to flu warnings.
Joined with prevailing human view that we are the victims of germs and viruses.
I have often chosen to get sick or have pain as a way to have alone time.
Yes, I traveled the last two weekends to Phoenix and LA, eating non-organic restaurant foods.
I realize I am increasingly sensitive to dishonoring what I know is best for me.
The choices I make reflect lack of time spent listening within.
The errors made went unnoticed, and I egoically thought I could "get away with it."
I continue to enjoy traveling and teaching, and acknowledge there is physical stress involved.
I don't know what you believe about illness, but this is my experience after years of exploring.
Please know I honor whatever you know or choose for yourself.
We are on a sacred journey of learning, through forgiveness and love, through judgment and pain.
Some of my choices were conscious, but most were not even noticed until after I was sick in bed.
I appreciate all of life's process for it keeps me humbly on my toes and returning to Spirit.
I know there is a Power and Presence within me which heals, guides, teaches, forgives and leads me.
When I allow the worldly power of fear and the noisy presence of commercial truth, I forget what I know and what I am here to be and do and share. For this I forgive myself.
From A Course in Miracles.
To heal is to make happy.
Illness comes from using the body lovelessly.
All healing is essentially the release from fear.
To love yourself is to heal yourself.
We are made whole in our desire to make whole.
To forgive is to heal.
Healing is the effect of minds that join, as sickness comes from minds that separate.
Healing Prayer:
I am here only to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Him Who sent me.
I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do, because He Who sent me will direct me.
I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal.
I am loving you,
Betty Lue